My granulocytes have been seriously low. Normal is 2.0 to 7.8 and mine have been 0.2.
No wonder I now have chronic eye infections.
That means before chemo I have to take a granulocyte stimulating drug called Leukine. Most breast cancer patients get neupogen or neulasta, but I get leukine. It does the same thing so I'm not sure why this is my doctor's favorite, but they all cause unpleasant side-effects.
The drug has been waiting for me in my fridge, staring at me sadistically.
Last Wednesday I was told to take it once a day for three days. This is an injection you give yourself subcutaneously, which is no problem for me as I have been giving myself Imitrex injections for more than 20 years.
The side effects from this drug are awful. Way worse than chemo, which are mostly just fatigue and a vague dysfunction of your bodily systems.
Leukine, on the other hand, causes a major migraine-style headache that, unlike regular migraines which manifest behind the eye, start at the base of the skull. It also causes me a seriously stiff neck, to the point that I can't turn my head at all. It causes all-over bone pain and volcano-like heartburn. And, it exacerbates the already present chemo-related fatigue.
The good news is on the first night I took it, I slept 15 hours. Not great sleep as my head was throbbing violently in my dreams, but it was sleep nonetheless. No sleeping drugs necessary. The other good thing is when you stop taking it the pain stops. I took it at 6:00 p.m. on Wednesday through Friday, and by Saturday afternoon I was head and neck pain free.
My biggest fear is now that I'm going to a weekly chemo schedule, I'll have to take it more often.
That stuff is killer. I can function at a minimal level on chemo. I can't function at all on leukine. My husband's car was stolen on Day 2 of my leukine injection and I was not even able to help him by driving him to the rental car place. I just couldn't function and was in bed until 2:00 p.m. He's been so helpful to me over this experience that I hated not being able to help him the one time he needed me to.
You want to will your body to do things, to function normally, but sometimes - it just doesn't work, no matter how much will you have.
I loathe Leukine.
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