Boys and Girls, in the last episode of Breast Cancer? But Doctor, I Hate Pink, I told you good news and bad news.
The good news was that my last scan showed a 50% reduction in tumor burden, holding off the inevitable for a time. The bad news was it was Gemzar that did it. While Gemzar is normally considered one of the easy chemos, I don't find it so, and it caused me some suffering. My body rejects Gemzar, and I must say, it is very odd for my body to reject anything with the word "gem" in it.
We were going to quit, but because of the good results, my doctor cut my dosage in half, and back on it I went.
Only, I didn't. Because it is a myelosuppresive drug, (as are all chemos) and my white cell count has still not recovered from the last one I had, weeks ago, I couldn't get it. For some reason, this one does a number on my marrow and my "grans" stay steady at only 1.3. Which makes me quite susceptible to infection (as well as understanding the decimal system.)
So my nurses have cancelled all my Gemzar appointments until I talk to the doctor. So much for that. I'm off chemo, however temporarily. That, my friends, is a Bad Thing.
I worry that cancer is left to grow unfettered in my liver and once again, my dream of living for a year has become more fantasy than possibility.
So that's my health news. I have five half written blog posts for you on various topics of cancer and candy, and I will finish them and post them but I suddenly feel the urge to nest and have been doing many homey things, like scrapbook instead of blog. (Not clean, God forbid.)
I wanted to tell you about an article in the New York Times that I was interviewed for:
Our Feel Good War on Breast Cancer
My part is at the end but truly, my opinion is sprinkled all throughout the piece and there is nothing I disagree with. I spoke to Peggy for a while on the phone and while I'm sorry I brought up those old cancer fears in her, we were very sympatico when it came to this subject. I hope you read it, learn from it and pass it along to your friends. It's an important topic.
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