You know how when you are a little girl, your mother is brushing your hair to get the tangles out? She gets frustrated and pulls too hard and screams at you to SIT STILL, and keeps smacking the brush into your head to get it over with. And, after your tears dry, you are left with a sore head.
Or, remember when when you were a teenage girl and you put your silky hair into a high ponytail. You are just the cutest thing, walking around with that swinging, shining piece of hair behind your head. You feel so sassy. But, after 12 hours of back and forth swaying, you have to peel the elastic out, pulling chunks of hair with it, and when you brush it out, your scalp is tender from all the pulling.
Maybe you were 20 and saw the latest style: tiny waves all over your hair. The fashion magazines say it's easy to get at home! Just wet your hair and braid it in small, very tight braids and sleep that way overnight. You spend hours taking 1/2 inch sections of hair and braiding them together. The next day, you brush out your braids, carefully from the bottom. Disappointingly, your hair is more frizzy and tangled then wavy - and the pulling from sleeping on the tight braids left a painful scalp. You have to scratch your head all over to make it feel better.
Maybe you are old enough to remember the Toni home perms. Maybe you tried it. Maybe you burned your scalp a little.
Tender scalp - we women have all felt it at one point or another.
That's what mine feels like now, five days after chemo. It's a sign that my hair will go. Supposedly hair goes between 10 and 20 days after your first treatment.
The way it feels, I'm betting on 10.
Haven't lost a one yet though.